Hope rose in the morning, feeling
like the universe had undergone some fundamental change. All her activities
were as mundane as ever. She showered. She dressed. She stripped her bed linens
to have them laundered and was grateful the system to do so was mechanized. Heaven
help her if anyone suspected what she’d done. Lokmi’s scent seemed to permeate
the room: the linens, the bed, the air itself. Hell, she thought she could
detect Lokmi’s spicy sex scent all over her even after soaping and shampooing
twice.
She was in shock. She’d had sex.
With a Kalquorian, no less. What had seemed so natural and good the night
before had turned into the unfathomable. She struggled to come to terms with her
actions.
Hope had given up all control.
She’d let Lokmi do all he’d wished. She reveled in her lack of power in the
situation. It made no sense she’d like such things.
I’ve never been a pushover. I’ve always been strong. Why did I give in
like I did? Why did it feel so good to let him have authority over me?
The confusion grew as her body
reacted to the memory of what they’d done. Her pussy clenched. It became wet
and warm as she remembered him pinning her down, of him confronting her about
her reaction to pain, of his suggestion she might enjoy a spanking.
A spanking, of all things!
I shouldn’t have wanted it. Any of it. And yet I did. I still do.
Strangest of all was how
surrendering herself to Lokmi had felt inexplicably safe. Where was the bizarre
sense of security coming from?
She jumped as a knock sounded on
her door. Her father called, “Hope, is everything okay? You’re going to be late
for your shift.”
She realized she’d been standing
in the middle of her room, twisting her sheets in her fists. She hurried to the
laundry intake slot in the wall. “Yeah, I’m almost ready. Thanks, Dad.”
Hope needed to focus. She needed
to get through the day with a clear mind. She firmly told herself she would
concentrate on her work, then on her family when she returned to quarters.
Maybe later, when she was alone again, she would let herself think about Lokmi.
About how good his hands and mouth felt on her. About how right it felt to give
herself to him. To open herself and let him make love to her.
I shouldn’t, though. I’m never going to forget it, but I should try to
put it at the back of my mind and not deliberately remember what it was like to
have him moving inside me, making me feel like nothing else in the universe
mattered.
Hope snorted at herself. She
already knew not contemplating sex with the magnificent Kalquorian would be
like telling her heart not to beat.
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